Apparently its the first day of fall? Do I not care for the calendar? No, not really, even though my days are a never ending clock. Very much a routine I have now. A blissful rare moment I take to update the blog with all my writings. I will have you know I am cliche at them moment, in my favorite cafe with my buttered up coffee--Pike with extra cream and sugar. No, no latte today. Avoiding the never ending studying and stress of a full time position. I am not in the point of my life I want my job to also occupy my free time. I am giving this day a purpose, for poems and prose. A moment for my soul to be free. I am now slightly seeing the style of my journal writing show up even in this post. Just thought I'd let you know, ha!
Not exactly sure how this relates to a poem, but just the fact that life is a rush of happiness and woe come from a surprise, slowly we develop a voice, even from a frame of mind. How to expel that? Only you can explore various means to find it and show it! Strut it! Possibly a stream of consciousness--have I mentioned this before? I cant tell between whats been physically written and an exposure of a poem in the inter-webs!
Back to the title I guess. Frustration. In a hope that light and the stars goes your way, making plans and dreams that what you want to accomplish will go well. And when that time comes we have to stand a brave face to see the outcome. I sit here still worry some of the outcome of the grade of my first chemistry test. I think I did well, but there is always going to be that underlying doubt. As my buddy said to me the other day: "everyone has insecurities", just being reminded of that reality was a good moment to stop and be reminded of how imperfect we ALL are. Previous to that moment, was full of...you guessed it...frustration. Frustration of life, time, love, looks, and many, many other things. We need to remember the difference between complaining in a sense of just being "mean" and actually being specific to pin point a problem/solution-- aka constructive criticism. Leaving the reality to be, let the anger bake for a bit, get all that you feel specific (your classic; who-what-where-when-why-how), until we need to remember to find a point to stop and know that there is never a 100 percent definite blame. You can't change people, you can only change your self, more importantly--how you react and handle this frustration. Take it in your hand, assess it, accept it, conclude, and move on.
Few of the following may show a moment of frustration. The cycle which it processed in the mind. Never necessarily what occurred afterward.
Stopped
Knight of Ravens
Class Dismay
Don't stay frustrated, have the strength in you to carry on!
Love to the world! Till next time!
Kahlan Jade
~BeautifulYou501
and thank you for handling my weird little rant, not sure if it will always be like this :)
Peace
